I was never what you wanted me to be ...
your requirements were too cramped, my heart too wide,
and my eyes would not un-see
what you didn't know you'd showed me,
so I sweetly held my tongue and played the game.
I could now explain and justify ... but why?
Degradation is an IOU due no one, self-abasement ...
a crushing mortal sin.
The choices have been made
and life moves on.
There's surely nothing helpful left to say.
I never hated you for what you didn't want to know,
just wished your certainty extended outward.
And yet ... what does it matter in the end ...
for you are only you and I am I,
as regrets and might-have-beens all fade to black.
Judy L. Smith
Copyright April 2013
An Anthem to Old Affinities
05 Apr 2013 12 Comments
in My Thoughts, Poetry Tags: be real, brave, DPchallenge, friendship, learning, life, poetry, relationships, writing
Playing for Time 
May 07, 2013 @ 07:01:14
I like this poem very nice!
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May 07, 2013 @ 09:29:26
Thank you, I truly appreciate your comment.
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Apr 17, 2013 @ 04:08:03
Profound concepts, beautifully expressed. Thank you for sharing them with us.
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Apr 17, 2013 @ 07:57:42
Thank you, Maureen. This is the first poetry I’ve written since grade school and the first line came to me while I was doing my makeup one morning.
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Apr 10, 2013 @ 21:30:31
Loved this! Sometimes the hardest thing is being true to yourself and accepting others are they are…and realizing when the two no longer work together.
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Apr 11, 2013 @ 06:21:52
Yes, that’s so true. And it can take years to work through it all. Writing is such a great catharsis, no?
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Apr 09, 2013 @ 10:24:29
This is so beautifully written! Great job!
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Apr 09, 2013 @ 10:28:38
Thank you so much. It comes from the sort of experience that is a real teacher.
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Apr 07, 2013 @ 12:33:27
Yes, I loved it! And I meant to say ‘devastatingly beautiful’….:)
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Apr 07, 2013 @ 13:59:05
I love you so much, and your good opinion is like manna to me. Hearts …
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Apr 06, 2013 @ 16:27:53
Wow…devastating and beautiful!
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Apr 06, 2013 @ 17:06:15
I’m glad you … liked it? 🙂
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