Day 181 – 09/09/2020
It’s misty, windy, and chill again this morning and it rained before dawn. The showers may stick around for a bit, and our highest forecast temp through next Wednesday is 83º so the times they are a changin’.
The seasonal transition to fall is the best, followed by winter-to-spring… everything seems to come ’round right, with new air, different foliage, the desire to FEEL it all again. And even though autumn has delivered a heavy load of melancholy since October 1985, it magically renews me every year like clockwork. In the swirl and murk of multiple crises bearing down on us, my spirit’s been waking me up the past few mornings with a jolt of happiness… anticipation even. Hello, soft muse, I’ve missed you.
Since there are good and positive aspects to every experience I’m consciously seeking them out, and one I’m happily aware of is the opportunity I’ve had to get healthy. Among other things I could whine about, I took a doctor-prescribed Rx for about eighteen months that altered my body chemistry or some such for the next three years, and now I have things almost squared away again which produces a fierce sense of gratitude. As recently as March, shortly after we started isolating, I had to give up coffee, of all slings and arrows, but with the advent of cooler weather I braved a trial mug and discovered that we’re friends again. If that wouldn’t make a girl feel better in September, you have to wonder what it would take.
Fall is about endings so it inevitably holds a hint of sadness for most of us, but its quiet, gentle beauty provides a store of firewood for whatever winter brings. I have a nice little stash going here, gathered from my desk as I watch the leaves change from one day to the next. The arrival of a new season is giving me hope… life goes on, the planet keeps turning, things we couldn’t possibly bear up under have happened and we’re still standing, so my hat’s in the ring until the large female vocalist lets us know differently.
Under everything, always, is this…
Playing for Time 
Sep 09, 2020 @ 16:52:10
I love that last bit especially. I’m just not in a good space when it comes to the season changing while I feel like I never got to enjoy the one that’s leaving. But, that’s life these days, and I will get through it. I always do. I’m glad this time brings joy to you and to many others. I’ll try to find something good about the change. I’ve always been a big summer fan, and even as a kid didn’t like winter or snow, so over the years I even developed a bit of a grudge against Fall, because I knew it meant Summer was over, and Winter was coming. I do really appreciate the beauty of the leaves changing, and am hoping Mom is able to go on some car rides with me soon. That will give us an appreciation of the changes. There, I did it – found something positive to look forward to!
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Sep 10, 2020 @ 06:28:41
I love you, Dee, and your huge heart, and I hope the shivery seasons will treat you gently this year…
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