Something you discover when you start scooping sand into boxes as raw material for sand castles, aka readable pieces of writing, is that if you’re writing for yourself the content can get rough for others to wade through at times. Therapy is rarely pretty or pleasant, but instead of locking the door and writing alone in the dark I leave the choice to my readers who’ve signed on – stay or go, read or skip, understand or drop by the wayside – because it helps me to think I’m bouncing those thoughts and feelings off someone who might be persuaded to care.
I know it’s been increasingly dicey here on Playing for Time over the past couple of years as I’ve clawed my way through a mountain of shock and disbelief at the changes in the country I’ve always called home and tried to reconcile what I know with what I see happening out there. I’ve undoubtedly stepped on toes and caused offense, as haven’t we all, in trying to feel our way through a labyrinth we don’t recognize as familiar territory anymore. In a gene pool rife with bipolarism I’ve experienced for the first (or maybe worst) time the heavy hand of actual depression, not to the point of requiring extra meds, but a far streak past The Blues.
That glow out there on the horizon this week – I want to think that’s end-of-the-tunnel-quality light, but I’ve finally earned my Cynic’s stripes so I’m not holding my breath. I do think democracy is going to win this one and that we’re eventually going to heal. I believe important things will have been won – and a few crucial ones will have been lost – by the time the smoke clears. We have risked much in being so willing to square off and choose sides – things we may miss as a semblance of normalcy returns – but we’ll survive this, I believe that now; whereas, there’ve been moments when I was none too sure.
If you’ve been here since early on, that’s cool and I thank you. If you’re a newbie, that’s cool too. If you take a quick romp back through the archives you’ll see that I’ve written about the most eclectic of subjects, so I could hit yours eventually.
Playing for Time 
Dec 15, 2018 @ 14:08:24
Life seems to throw up flotsam from time to time, llke the sea as it breaks on the shore, or a tidal river as it flows up and down its estuary; and like all flotsam, there is the good, the bad, and the downright ugly – but all is truth as it exists. Truth can often be unpalatable – as can nasty medicine, but we have to take the unpalatable with the better stuff while hoping it gets better.
Right now here in UK, I am feeling about as grey and depressed as it is possible to feel while being convinced we have never had a more incompetent lot of politicians pretending to be statesmen/women.
I voted to leave the EU because I viewed the whole set up as a gathering of corrupt bureaucrats busy lining their own pockets, led by the unelected commissioners, with all riding the Strasbourg gravy train. It was that, and that alone, that prompted me to vote for Brexit. I want more accountability. I have to play my game of financial juggling straight down the line – I want all British politicians to do the same.
Keep posting Judy – we love reading your thoughts.
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Dec 15, 2018 @ 16:22:59
Thank you, Maureen, and I hope your Brexit woes get sorted along with what’s happening here. A lot of the world is in a state of flux right now, but maybe there’s never been a time when it hasn’t. I do truly hope we’ll both be in a sunnier state of mind soon.
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Dec 09, 2018 @ 21:48:26
I see a light too and am so thankful for a possible reprieve from the insanity we’ve been forced to deal with the past couple of years. If we could just step our toes in some sanity, we might actually survive! I can feel it!
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Dec 10, 2018 @ 06:54:51
Hope this phase doesn’t take TWO. MORE. YEARS.
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Dec 09, 2018 @ 16:34:53
I love you and your writing. Keep being YOU…no one else can do it better. 🙂
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Dec 09, 2018 @ 19:36:54
Thanks sincerely, my adorbs friend. I never could get the hang of being anybody else.
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Dec 09, 2018 @ 13:41:21
I’m still here and kickin’!
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Dec 10, 2018 @ 06:55:25
I don’t know which Patty you are, but that’s cool.
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Dec 09, 2018 @ 12:44:39
I think you’ve summed up most of us. This controversy has left families and friends devastated in its wake. Thank you for your words.
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Dec 09, 2018 @ 13:16:05
You’re welcome. It’s been a time. One I hope we won’t be required to gird up for again, should the earth survive.
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