Studies in human nature…



“I vant to be alone.” ~ Greta Garbo

Except, according to Ms. Garbo, “I never said, ‘I want to be alone.’ I only said, ‘I want to be let alone!’ There is all the difference.”

There is all the difference.

You can’t do much writing, unless you’re journaling about one of the dustier sciences, without becoming a student of human nature, an endlessly intriguing and confusing subject. Who could ever comprehend humans? And having somehow done so, how would we ever live with what we’d learned about each other?

Once in a while the undercurrent of low-grade depression that accompanies my existence gets to be a bit much and I’m forced to acknowledge its existence to the point of taking a break from whatever seems to be the main problem. This time, Facebook was clearly leaving me in a state, so a Fall Sabbatical was an easy decision, and I’d no sooner closed the door than my normal sunny personality started breaking through again. Full disclosure, I also activated my sleepy Twitter account around that same time and started finding *inner healing* through shooting my mouth off.  To each her own poison.

Yesterday iMessage, which I can get to on my desktop now only through Facebook (I need a teenager, STAT), contained an odd and off-putting message that still has me in a mood. It was a clip of a skit enacted by young black students, male & female, dressed in scrubs, shooting police officers with automatic weapons, along with a personal message that said in part: “I have felt that you lean towards only seeing one side. I know you have taken a recess from FB and I just wanted you to see this. Are the youth in our schools being given permission to have such disregard for authority? This will only lead to more serious problems.”

Why now? Why purposely back me into a corner when I’ve said I need the exact opposite of that for a while?  I can wish mightily that I had answers, but I don’t. I’m tired. My head is tired, my heart is tired, I just need to go in a different direction for a few weeks and let some of the nastiness of recent battles filter out a little. I’m angry. Angrier than I’ve ever been in my life that lizardy old men think it’s just fine that other men assault and take advantage of young girls like I once was, and they laugh about it and celebrate it and elevate each other to the highest offices in the land. So angry. For the first time in my life there are people I hate.

It would have been an excellent time to let me alone. I asked nicely, after all, like any good little American girl would do. And we see, over and over and over again, how that works out.







9 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. maureenjenner
    Oct 13, 2018 @ 11:48:54

    I am reminded of something my father told me as a child: ‘For fear your tongue should make a slip, three things observe with care; of whom you speak; to whom you speak – how, when, and where.’

    All too often we hurt others without meaning to, so I am, as an octogenarian, slowly learning to mind what I say – especially on line and in print. In the past I have done things in haste – and regretted them, so now I take a step back and give myself time to reflect, and, as my late darling Paul would have said; ‘Give yourself time to see shades of grey in between the black and white.’

    Take care Judy, and take heart.

    Liked by 1 person


  2. Christopher Hayes
    Oct 10, 2018 @ 08:17:18

    Oh, Judy. I’m right there with you as I’ve taken an autumn FB break myself. While we probably share many of the same reasons for this, there could also be other, separate reasons as well. I respect you and your decision and hope to have you back when you feel the time is right for you. Wishing you peace and love, my friend.

    Liked by 1 person


    • Judy Smith
      Oct 10, 2018 @ 10:56:05

      Times away … for solitary souls like you and me they’re a have-to thing. I’m already figuring a few things out, which in turn lifts the angst a little, so maybe life hasn’t gotten so scary after all. Ahhh … breathing is good, no? Wishing you peace and love in return, friend … come see us.



  3. Sarah Schaeffer
    Oct 09, 2018 @ 09:37:28

    I’m afraid I am one of those friends that is a sometime reader. But I do understand how a break would be good I have cleared out a lot of stuff and scroll quickly by anything about you know who. I do miss your sweet comments.

    Liked by 1 person


    • Judy Smith
      Oct 09, 2018 @ 20:30:26

      Thank you, Sarah. A rest from the routine, and some space between us and our stressors adds up to big gains in the arena of inner peace, as I’m sure you know. It’s a good investment.



  4. Barbara
    Oct 07, 2018 @ 16:36:39

    I’m with you. I need a break, my anger and hate are too hard for me to live with. I’m an empathic intuitive girl and the energy is like poison to my well being. I love your posts and real talk. ❤️B

    Liked by 1 person


Talk to me, I'm soooo lonely ...

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.


A blog full of humorous and poignant observations.

Playing for Time

"How did it get so late so soon?" ~Dr. Seuss

Mitch Teemley

The Power of Story

John Wreford Photographer

Words and Pictures from the Middle East

Live Life, Be Happy

Welcome to my weekly blog on life's happiness. We are all human and we all deserve to smile. Click a blog title or scroll down. Thanks for stopping by.

Wild Like the Flowers

Rhymes and Reasons

The Last Nightowl

Just the journal of an aging man looking at the world

Jenna Prosceno

Permission to be Human

Flora Fiction

Creative Space + Literary Magazine

tonysbologna : Honest. Satirical. Observations

Funny Blogs With A Hint Of Personal Development


When will we ever learn?: Common sense and nonsense about today's public schools in America.

The Alchemist's Studio

Raku pottery, vases, and gifts

Russel Ray Photos

Life from Southern California, mostly San Diego County


The parts of my life I allow you to see

Going Medieval

Medieval History, Pop Culture, Swearing

It Takes Two.

twinning with the Eichmans

Vox Populi

A curated webspace for Poetry, Politics, and Nature. Over 16,000 daily subscribers. Over 7,000 archived posts.


frightfully wondrous things happen here.


Live Life Write

Social Justice For All

Working towards global equity and equality

Drinking Tips for Teens

Creative humour, satire and other bad ideas by Ross Murray, an author living in the Eastern Townships of Quebec, Canada. Is it truth or fiction? Only his hairdresser knows for sure.

john pavlovitz

Stuff That Needs To Be Said

Gretchen L. Kelly, Author

Gretchen L. Kelly

random thoughts and scattered poems

Margaret and Helen

Best Friends for Sixty Years and Counting... News

The latest news on and the WordPress community.

Musings of a Penpusher

A Taurean suffering from cacoethes scribendi - an incurable itch to write.

Ned's Blog

Humor at the Speed of Life

Funnier In Writing

A Humor Blog for Horrible People

%d bloggers like this: